welll. court wasnt too good i guess...im now in my dads custody and and mom now has to send HIM money...

anyway...on a better note...i got my nails done for sadies but i still need to get them airbrushed in red and black...

ive had tests ever day so far and i still have two more 2 go...

Brendon came up 2 me today and asked me 4 a hug and then a kiss...i was so confused...he said Adrian was trippin and that he wasnt goin to go to sadies with her...and he said he though i already knew he wasnt gonna  go to sadies...anyways...hes supposed to call me today...iono... 

tywon and i have been gettin along better too...but iono he was actin weird 2day...but we've been talkin and junk...iono...its never gonna happen anyway cuz he a senior and im a freshman...

ive got so many mixed feelins that iono what do to...all i CAN do is my homework...deal with my social life and not my family life...but i cant keep on puttinit off...

anyways...i gotta study 4 my fench quiz and history test...

Porse's brother kinda asked me out to Sadies...girls r supposed to ask the guys out but that doesnt matter...anyway...i couldnt say no cuz hes her brother and it felt weird saying yes (though i technically didnt) for the same reason...

on another note...Tywon kissed me on the side of my head twice today...i felt kinda like he was kissin me like his daughter or somethin but it was still kinda nice...we get along better than we used to but sometimes outta nowhere, he'd just up and leave...iono...i guess i kinda like him but i cant help thinkin he doin the same thing with other girls (if not more) at the same time...

Anthony tried to steal my hat too...

and people owe me money....

Monique $1

Lance $2.75

Anthony $2 and he said he would pay me back THREE dollars tomorrow

Samantha $1

ive been cleanin up my room...worried about everythin...my parents...sadies...my grades...my room...my face...my hair...my outfit 4 sadies...everything...i REALLY feel like shit..iono what im gonna do...nothins goin right in my life...or at least not now anyway...i dont think...

i need a vieo game...i need to move outta here...i need to do somethin...stop worryin..actually...i need to get back to cleanin up my room...

dont got much time but....I went sahoppin 4 sadies today...got myself the rest of a cute outfit a some cute shoes and a purse to go with it...red & black RocaWear outfit...with EckoRed shoes but no1'll notice....

anyway...im not even sure about goin to sadies anymore.  Porse's cousin's sayin i should go with her brother but that wouldnt feel right...goin with a friend's brother...im not that kinda person...

put people are sayin i SHOULD go...but with whom?!...i thought, well FUCK IT!...i'll just go by myself and dance with some dudes, just hang out....i dont need a date...but i dont think that'll turn out too well...i know somethin's goin to go on with either Anthony, Brendon, or Tywon OR Mo, Sam, Ali and who knows who else...just like homecomin...

i just feel like hangin with some friends or somethin...i think im depressed but im not sure...MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP ITS NOT FUNNY...

im probably gonna have some much homework to do over the next few days...i came home late after shoppin 2day...i'll b up all night on friday at the Powers VS Carman, i'll be up all saturday night watchin adult swim and all that other shit...and i still have my project to start on...i really want better grades this quarter...real bad...i need a man soooooooooo bad its not even funny...i dont go to carman and theres almost no1 at Powers...i feel like...iono...and its weird tooo...cuz i thought Brendon was gonna b it...we was at a great start...he was soooo sweat too...callin me and shit...now...iono whats goin on...i guess we still friends but...it aint the same...and Tywon's just "investin" in me...LONG STORY...but he's sweat too, but, to other girls also...but he keeps on sayin he likes ME...BULLSHIT...hes just sayin that but...i just cant help thinkin...and Anthony...hes sweat and all...i just dont know him too well i guess...iono what's gonna happen...if anythin..he makes me confused...in a good way i guess...

I HOPE ALL THIS SHIT SORTS ITSELF OUT... EVERYTHIN

Brendon is fine but he fucked up with sadies...first he dont know if he can go...then he say hes gonna go with someone else and NOT tell me...then he said he aint goin....but he sweet too

Anthony is fine too and kinda sweet...in an inocent kinda way...its weird cause today he was a weird in i guess a childish but horny way if that makes any sence, smilin and junk.  He asked me to walk to his locker before goin to class.

Tywan...hes a whole different story.  He's smooth but he thinks i hate him or something.  butt i think hes juz messin with me...always tryin to make a move on me...

and the weird thing...i still dont have a saides date...well i used to...

anyway...ive decided to bring up my grades and get myself a man...lolzz...fresh start...

iono whats gonna happen monday...now im in the worst mood...

snyway, jackie and i are goin the the carman and powers bball game friday

i still need to get that belt with my name on it...

stupid ass dad...

too fuckin lazy and stuborn

asshole...

OH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO PUT THIS SHIT ON MY PROFILE...THIS IS BULLSHIT...WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO HTML...YOU ASSHOLES...WHO CAME UP WITH THIS FUCKIN WEBSITE ANYWAY...